Lately, I don’t know why but I have been eagerly listening to sappy sad love songs. I’m not bitter or whatever.. I just appreciate how the message of the songs flows through my cold veins as it pumps blood into my numb heart.
For now, I can attest to the saying that who can say why your heart cries, when your love lies.. only time.
Unconsciously, I can sleep well as I hit the sack after my shift. I love seeing the sunshine as it peeks through the window of my bedroom. I enjoy taking a nice looooonnng (take note: LONG ) shower and play with my dresses in my closet.
The pain that I have been hiding from the whole world to see is long gone. I didn’t know when but it’s gone.
Whenever I try to remember the events that shattered my life, I just laugh at myself for I never realized that I was too blinded by my emotions. One thing I can say without any hesitations is I do not have any REGRETS with what I had done in the past.
When we’re in-love, we do things way beyond what we normally do. We act as if there’s no tomorrow.. in short, insanity.
It’s really ironic but that is the bittersweet truth. The pain may take forever to descend in my heart but only time will tell when will it end… and it did!
If only the world knew what I had experienced, they will understand why I decided to leave it and be on my own. Honestly? It’s shocking and very traumatic for me. I learned a lot from all those things that happened to me.
For now, I’m thankful that I managed to survive another adversity that once colored my life hue.
